and its midterms week yet again. this is my tenth and final week of midterms. i'm so exhausted.

i've been studying for most of the past few days. i've been spending a lot of time at school. grant has tried to apologize for his comment last week but he really doesn't understand what he's apologizing about so that kind of makes the apology null and void in my world. i've been much happier this week since i've been working alone. i think i went into grant-overload. 

i'll be a much happier camper once i get through midterms. i'm going to key west to see jai the first weekend of spring break. i'll be working all of spring break, then i'm hoping to see amy the second weekend of spring break. i say that i'm hoping to see her because we've had a miscommunication and she may already have plans for that weekend.

amy just called and we've finally talked. actually talked. beyond the shallow "how was your day crap". she thinks i've been sitting on my frustration with us not talking for a couple of weeks now because apparently i had this same break down two weeks ago and that i just haven't been talking to her about it. she does think that we need to make more time for each other. actually what she really said was that she needs to make more time for us and she'll do whatever it takes. why can't i accept that at face value? why do i have to wonder what else i can be doing to help make "us" work? why do i have to be so fucking emotional?