I have been incredibly sad for the last couple of weeks which is one of the reasons I have not felt like blogging. I am faced with a moral dilemma that no one can help me with, it is something that I need to deal with myself. I need to make a choice and deal with the consequences. Both choices available to me are petrifying.

I have also been spending many of my evenings for the last couple of weeks at my favorite coffee shop. I go get my tea and I sit in a corner and read for hours. Every time I have to turn a page, I glance around at the other patrons. I probably look crazy in my corner, watching people as I read. Its an odd habit and I don't really remember why or when it started.

I am also sad that I missed the thunderstorm this afternoon. I was stuck in the lab using a hydrogen torch when the thunderstorm was happening. It was quite difficult to not flinch when the loud cracks of thunder would startle me.

I am off to read....